We have family and friends that tell us we look nice, and thank you for helping and compliment us on our drive and desire to change.

Life would be so easy if that was the only input we had.

Today my inner dialog started the minute I got out of bed. And it was not nice or complimentary today. Today my inner dialog kept repeating over and over that I didn’t have to complete all 90 days of my program as prescribed. I just needed to workout everyday. Which IS true. And I am not sure why I keep beating myself up about it. I get so weird about it that I freak-out and then I don’t do anything because I “messed up”. Its not messed up, what is messed up is that I think I need to be perfect. Fitness is not about perfection its about progress!

I am going to do something everyday for an hour! Be it a P90X workout or a Firm workout or Billy Blanks (‘cuz I have them all )

Anyway, I heard this same conversation on a loop from 6:30AM until I finally started talking back to that dialog – not out loud – and said I DO to need to do it. I said I was going to do it and I am going to do it, you shut up. All day at work I was able to maintain that same positive dialog. By time work got out I was beating myself up again. So now I am telling myself to stay on the wagon.  Don’t jump off and give up. Its all good. Just do something that makes me sweat 1 hour a day and I will get to my goals and not lose my mind in the process

I did work out last night. I did eat in my calorie limit and I still have not eaten meat. I make decisions all the time and stick to them. I don’t know why it is so easy for me to stray from my workouts so easily.

The only thing I never try to talk myself out of is my walks with Marla. I enjoy the time together and the exercise is bonus That is probably why I went to the gym without fail, 3 days a week for 2 years. I was meeting someone and we held each other accountable.

I don’t want to try to work out with my kids or husband for accountability. It would turn into a battle with the kids and that is not why I want to workout. I want to do it to get in the best shape in my life!

My inner dialog needs to go take a hike! Today I was stronger then it and won the battle. Each day is a battle and I WILL be stronger.

I know I have a few friends that read my ramblings – If you want to commit 1 to 1.5 hours a day to come over and work out with me, let me know.  I am doing this, alone or with a partner. 87 days from now time will have passed. I can have taken each day and done something that will move me closer to my goal, or I can have watched each day pass and do nothing.

I choose to be closer to my goal.

Today was Cardio X. I like that one.

It’s about 45 minutes and all things I can do. I’m sore today after yesterdays workout. People at work noticed me limping a bit. After sitting at my desk for a while, when I would get up would be stiff. It made me smile. I earned every sore muscle I have.

Feeling like I have a bit more energy today. Glad I started down this road.

Have a great night all!

I think that means I worked out to my ability tonight. P90X Core Synergistic’s; Done!

My brain is mush right now, it was a good workout. No fancy footwork to keep up with, just good solid core exercise.

I did take day 1 pictures. Front, side, and back. I can’t post them yet. My laptop was just received at HP today. 4 to 6 day turn around. So all my updates are via my iPhone App. I’ll post day 1 and day 30 pictures together

89 days to go

I talked about it, I thought about it, I shopped around at other programs but in the end I decided to commit to doing P90X. I have never done it, and I should it’s a good program.

I keep telling my son, he’s got to stop saying he’s gonna “try” to do something. There is no try. It’s do or not do ~ Yoda

So, I’m gonna do it!
Stay tuned.

I am down to what I was last November, and in 10 more pounds I will be back where I was when I was diagnosed last August.

I am happy with my new job and life is good! This is a much happier post then I have had here lately, glad to be getting back to life, my life that I feared was gone for good.

If you have thyroid issues and you know you don’t feel “right”. Don’t let them tell you ” your numbers look good” keep talking, keep telling them. If they don’t listen go somewhere else until they do. You know your body better then anyone else.

I know I have had a few up days and have been pretty up and down for the last 5 months…but I feel things might finally be getting closer to normal.

I have started physical therapy for my foot. It has been giving me quite  a bit of pain as of late. When I followed up with my podiatrist, he said there was a lot of scar tissue in there from the surgery. He gave me a shot of cortisone and signed me up for 12 visits to PT. I went for a walk with a numb foot from the cortisone and that allowed me to move the foot more then I would have if it was not numb, so that combined with 2 visits to PT so far this week I an very optimistic that it is going to be good at the end of 12 visits.

The endocrinologist upped my meds a bit again and I am glad of that. I have been very cold and was feeling better but still felt a little bit off.  I have high hopes that that will get me to a point where we can stop adjusting for a while. I would love to have that level off and let me just continue on my merry way.

The new job is still stressful in that I have so much to do to prove myself to my new boss and doing what they need me to do. I am not used to working at such an elevated positions and so many of the people I have to send emails to are people I would NEVER just send an email to in the past. I have to get over that intimidation factor….they are just people doing a job. Still I don’t want to look like an idiot or make my boss look like an idiot in front of his peers.

Tonight my new boss took my whole group out (12 including him) for dinner. We went to a Japanese Steak House – where they cook the food right in front of you and put on a show…very nice. Show was good and the food was very YUM as well. I only ate a little bit of everything. I was proud of that, and I brought the rest home so my family could taste it.

Now I am home and waiting for this storm to pass so I can go to sleep without worrying about being lifted up and set back down in OZ.

Have a good night!

Treat urself like an overweight out of shape person & that is what you
will be. ~ Chalene Johnson

If it’s helpful for me to know it, tell me. If hurtful, nothing I can change or just 2nd hand info…save your breathe. ~ Chalene Johnson

The second one is AWESOME! How often have you been told something that falls into the second category?  How many times has some told you something that you really didn’t need to know?

Both of those statements are powerful to me. I have been dealing with my health for almost a year and I am starting to get close to feeling like myself. I have been walking with a new friend and that is really helping me fine me again. However when I am left to my own accord I will still tend to sit and do nothing. But I am at least watching my total calories for the day – so days when I exercise I can eat more then days when I don’t. Calories in < Calories out and you will lose weight

OK I need to make plans for the day and get moving.

Enjoy your weekend!

I don’t really have any girlfriends to  call or talk to so I’m going to talk to myself – and if others read and comment; BONUS!

I can remember 7 years ago when I first moved into the roll I just left for my new job. I was scared! I would sit at my desk most days and cry at least once a day. Why did I take this job; I would wonder. What was I thinking I can’t possibly do what they want me to do. But in time when I figured things out, I did do what they wanted and then some. Now they are really sad that I have moved on.

I had a couple things that my new manager was asking for today and I was not picking up what he was after so I felt stupid having to ask a bunch of questions. I just HATE to ask questions. I hate to look stupid! But I figured it out and I think I got him what he needed, at least I have not gotten it back with comments yet.

OK off to get the rest of my day done.

We had a really nice vacation, it was hot and humid down there but it was nice to get away without any distractions. Now its back at work and closing out some open tasks before I start my new job.

I officially start reporting to my new boss tomorrow, but my old job has not been filled and the guy filling in for me is on vacation next week so I am not free for a while.

I went to the endocrinologist today. It has only been two weeks since he adjusted my meds so I have not had my blood drawn, its too soon to see what that last adjustment did. I can tell you…I don’t think its high enough. I have had a few “moments” today. I can’t stand to think that the rest of my life could be like this. I don’t feel like me, I have to make myself do stuff. The effort it takes just to get up in the morning is hard to believe.

I have been exercising this week and my muscles are very sore, and I have been keeping track of my calories. I took today as my rest and re-feed day without pigging out all day. I had breakfast, a snack, lunch and dinner. A small handful of Peanut M&M’s and that’s it.

I want a new exercises DVD program. I am tired of the one I am doing because I have done it so many times before. Its a good solid program I just need something new. I have been looking at a couple new Beachbody programs, I just can’t decide. I’ll let you know if I make up my mind and buy one

I am going to turn in early tonight, have a great night.

I have added another blog for my Niece’s husband Brandon. He’s just starting P90X and would love it if you stopped by and encouraged him in his efforts!

His blog homepage is http://www.fitnessbuddyonline.com/blog2.php

12 days until Florida!! I am doing a low carb thing until we leave – then while on vacation all bets are off

When we get back I think I may take another try at the P90X, or maybe a round of Power 90 then move on to P90X. Its been a while since I have done any major workouts, and the couple workouts I did on P90X just about kicked my A$$!

Well I must go for a short walk before I move on to homework.

Have a great night all!